It is truly amazing how much has happened since I last posted, yet so little has been done. Maybe amazing is not the appropriate word for what has been going on. There was a family tragedy, followed by family drama, and more recently, some reconciliation. However, I lost the motivation to move forward.
There is so much motivation around. Things I read and watch on the web. Observations of things I could apply to my hobby or craft from my real life surroundings in my house, yard, neighborhood or distant places I have travelled both in the past as well as recently. But I lost the “want” I had for my hobby. How could I want, when so much need that exists that drains my energy and will. I have (an maybe continue to) lose sleep over thinking about it.
Was it me? What is them? Was is a combination of the two. I travelled a long distance with a companion to identify the situation that caused the rift and try to move forward. I have had some trouble trying to even get to that point, but with encouragement from my spouse and travelling companion, I moved forward and took that journey. What was the result? The beginning of the healing process, but there is a long way to go.
I sleep a little better at night. I am finding my motivation again, even if it not directly related to this endeavor or my hobbies. I am slowly healing, but it is a grand canyon of a wound that may never heal (or even grow). As they say, “only time will tell”.
In the meantime, I am making an effort to work on this little side hustle/hobby/slash that maybe I could make some side income in the future. The community helps with motivation, but ultimately, it must come from within me.
More to follow.
Happy crafting.
BTW – How’s your summer going? What projects are you working on? Just asking for a friend.
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